Our Darkness becomes others light

People think it’s about feeling better straight away. Or getting fit straight away. Or getting that goal straight away.. instant gratification society… But truth is we are trying our best to feel our best to feel better and our recognition is the only recognition that matters. We don’t have anything to prove to anyone. We don’t need to rush the process of finding freedom. But we do need to see that everything that is holding us and our heart tight are just thoughts. They feel like they are in control but they aren’t. What I learnt is once you have held darkness in your soul the world makes you feel like you will never find home here on earth. There is nothing more lonely and debilitating then being here around people but feeling like you don’t belong or cannot relate. However I also learnt no one is alone in this feeling we just all tend to hold it all in and hide behind our masks until we can’t and that breaking looks different for all of us. I ask you to be gentle and compassionate with yourself if you are struggling. Speak to yourself the way you speak to others who are suffering. These thoughts and emotions are controlling you but not in control. Tell them to someone. You deserve to be heard. You are no less than someone you think looks like they have it more together than you, we all are fighting. Open your heart. When you feel closed off to the love around you, remind your heart that it deserves to feel the love it dreams about it. You are loved more than you feel. The biggest gift of darkness I learned is…I had to live through my mess because I must live to tell my story of darkness because darkness shines light back to those who don’t know how to live through their mess, to know they are not alone.

My first review – When I first picked up Brave, Beautiful and Baring it All, by Rhyanna Watson

My first review
When I first picked up Brave, Beautiful and Baring it All, by Rhyanna Watson, I instantly judged her; questioning her motives for using naked and semi-naked photos of herself throughout the book, for sharing her experiences with strangers, deriding it, not taking her seriously.
Not listening to what I was reading, I cast it aside.
Luckily, I picked it up again and opened it: page seventy-two, Befriend your inner critic.
I was horrified to realise that I had been hyper critical of Rhyanna Watson, and her book before I had even read it.
What would I say to her if she was standing in front of me, if she was a friend? Would I be so critical of what she had chosen to share with me? Would I scoff at her photos? No, I would not. I would tell her that she is brave and that I wish I had her courage.
I am so glad that I went back to the beginning and, closing my critical eye, read as if she were a dear friend.
The difference was astounding.
I began questioning my inner voice; asking myself the reason behind feelings, reactions and my blind responses to them. And although I know with a certainty full review
https://www.frostmagazine.com/2020/01/brave-beautiful-and-baring-it-all-by-rhyanna-watson-reviewed-by-mary-cooper/

What I want you to know

As I sit here on my bed in Europe. Thinking of my Island home and where my life started just me in my essence & my first breath Tasmanian air. I guess the one thing I hope my message brings as you read my words and see me here is this… In all honesty, I think there is no specific formula/way to make ones life change for the better and the world doesn’t change for us. We change. The messiness, the hurt, the ache of life never leaves. I believe in the art of suffering well that’s what I call life, we get stronger, wiser, more compassionate and loving in our actions and thoughts. I think what happens is you just get better at not letting the dark in and the chaos control you. We may not be able to control the people that judge us, the people that love us, life’s circumstances but we can control ourselves. We choose to fight for light instead of darkness, love instead of fear, compassion instead of judgment, observation instead of projection. We learn we can control how we move forward, the way we choose to believe that we are worthy of love and what we put in the world. We can choose to see love is enough and what we were given is enough. We can control how we grow from things. We can control how we suffer.
As my book is about to be in stores tomorrow this is my ultimate wish for you and this is what I want you to know: You are not alone. You are of such inestimable value. Whatever difficulties, obstacles or seemingly insurmountable challenges are overwhelming your life force, they are not permanent, the only constant in life is change, there is a way around, and I hope my works and book will help you by connecting you to the divinity, awesomeness, talents and love that has always been inside of you instead of the fear and chaos that this culture and life bestows upon each of us.

Coming together in all that exists helping humanity isn’t about good or bad

Some people say….Once you learn to be happy, you won’t tolerate being around people who make you feel anything less. I believe our job is to get off our self righteous butts and start reaching out to all people including the difficult people because our world isn’t about a bunch of nice people getting together once a week to sing and cook and get a feel good message. It is about caring for and helping the broken hearted, the difficult, the hurt, the misunderstood, the repulsive, the wicked and the liars. As well as the loved, the ones and those doing well and those that are full of kindness. It’s about caring for humanity. It is about turning the other cheek when someone hurts you. Because we have or been the villain and the victim, It is about loving one another and making amends. It is allowing people chances and to be different even if we fear or don’t understand or wouldn’t do it that way, because life is tough and we have to remember we are all struggling and make mistakes. It’s about finding gratitude even in the midst of chaos. When you see this about life then you will know me and you will know true happiness and peace not because we are perfect but because we are humans doing our best with love. You will see social media is not just a number or people aren’t what they do or wear, or a look, or just yoga or a mom we are all so much more, it is so much more.

Australia is my home and the devastation is heartbreaking.💔
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Light up our lives is an inside joy

As I leave Tasmania today & my family my heart is full & slightly challenged as all things in life we take the good with the bad. Happy because it happened but sad to say see you soon. I learn more & more each day our ability to be turned on and happy in life and our existence and others is all about us. It is about our connection to our spirit and our unique awesomeness. We are often taught to keep our turn ons to life and others on the download as if standing in our uniqueness was meant to be a disadvantage and a disappointment. But when we do what society asks to keep it on the download we lose our light. Each of us has had some kind of rupture—be it incest, rape, verbal abuse, being ignored, what have you. What happens as a consequence is that we get angry, & we turn off our radiance. We go wandering the earth, unwilling to light the world up with our life-giving turn-on. We—and the entire world—suffer the consequences. We then do the only thing we know how to do: we make the unconscious choice to cut ourselves off from our own radiance. Repressed radiance turns into anger. Because we don’t have an external outlet where we can express it, we turn that anger toward ourselves and others —where it settles in as depression, judgement and sadness. What I have found is what makes many of us angry is? When this choice is pointed out to us. When we are invited to release the anger and reclaim our radiance we do not like this. We get furious at the thought of reigniting the gift of our turn-on, because we have often taken sides against it. We were hurt so young and had to turn ourself off to stay protected. Now we are infuriated at the very thought of a different choice. We can make ourselves happy, we can get fit, we can be the love we need. We often long for the thing that feels culturally & historically comfortable, even when that thing is self-defilement and self-abuse like the untruths and stigmas. However what we aren’t told in life is that cutting off from our radiance is an inside job at some point we choose it too. We humans are the ones who cut ourselves off, and it is only in the company of other like minded souls that we can reclaim what was once ours

The story called me flowing through the depths

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As I come to the closure of 2019 and my book about to be launched in a few weeks in a land I call home, in a place where my story begins. I reflect upon my story and the one many of you will soon read. The story called my life. I share my story of trauma and abuse with you not because it’s unique. In fact, it’s painfully common. Everywhere I turn, I hear of traumas, violence and abuse taking place across the globe. As you look around your life, you too will find stories of abuse—your own and those of others you know. So much so that for every person that judged our journey there was a story of trauma hidden but it came out as fear instead of love upon us. Perhaps you never registered these as abuse because they were so conventional. In many cases the pain will be ignored, leaving darkness for the bearer of the experience to pay, as I did. I realise now more than ever…. Happy people choose happiness. Happy people know the only way to happiness is to be happy. They know if you want to stop hate, stop hating. They do what will facilitate happiness and love. If they are struggling with things they choose to find help, meditate, or whatever they need to get through it. Trust me a few years ago my attempt on life gave me two options to either suffer in darkness lose my life and damage others or facilitate what will bring light. I chose to help myself, to be brave and accept that some things cant change external to me but I can and work with what I can and still am a working on this every day. To know happiness is an acknowledgement of all emotion. Most happy people started their journey broken whether self destructed or unfortunate bestowed events. Happy people know suffering just like anyone else but they also learn to see the beauty their lives because they have seen the depths.

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As I come to the closure of 2019 and my book about to be launched in a few weeks in a land I call home, in a place where my story begins. I reflect upon my story and the one many of you will soon read. The story called my life. I share my story of trauma and abuse with you not because it’s unique. In fact, it’s painfully common. Everywhere I turn, I hear of traumas, violence and abuse taking place across the globe. As you look around your life, you too will find stories of abuse—your own and those of others you know. So much so that for every person that judged our journey there was a story of trauma hidden but it came out as fear instead of love upon us. Perhaps you never registered these as abuse because they were so conventional. In many cases the pain will be ignored, leaving darkness for the bearer of the experience to pay, as I did.
I realise now more than ever….
Happy people choose happiness. Happy people know the only way to happiness is to be happy. They know if you want to stop hate, stop hating. They do what will facilitate happiness and love. If they are struggling with things they choose to find help, meditate, or whatever they need to get through it. Trust me a few years ago my attempt on life gave me two options to either suffer in darkness lose my life and damage others or facilitate what will bring light. I chose to help myself, to be brave and accept that some things cant change external to me but I can and work with what I can and still am a working on this every day. To know happiness is an acknowledgement of all emotion. Most happy people started their journey broken whether self destructed or unfortunate bestowed events. Happy people know suffering just like anyone else but they also learn to see the beauty their lives because they have seen the depths.

Being Real Baring It All

Yesterday I met incredible @tas_models_co we randomly did a shoot a 5am on seven mile beach a place @eleanorsfight and I played swam as kids. The shoot was my fav style rolling in the sand no edits. I remember in my @blissology teacher training in Bali I often ate sand in my spare time as I did yoga at the sea connecting to me. It’s my place to just move with the earth and water and let go of all the masks that I feel life wants me to wear.
As my book is about to be launched Jan 14 and I’m back home where my life began I want to share a bit for pre order https://www.amazon.com extract from my book…. I first started blogging when I had postnatal depression, both because I felt a need to express myself and I didn’t want anyone else to feel lonely and unhappy as I did. My hope was that when people would see other people, like myself, baring their all with such honesty and vulnerability, that it might make it easier for them to reach out for help and support too. But sharing ourselves and our stories can be hard. It feels uncomfortable and extremely vulnerable to lay bare our innermost selves in public way as we are programmed to worry about what others may think and whether or not they will still love and accept us once they know what we perceive to be our vulnerabilities and weaknesses. “Will they still think I’m smart? Beautiful? Funny? A good person? A good mum? “ (and the list goes on.) The potential reward however is that by offering support and drawing on support of others, so we can harness the collective energy of our peers to help us feel less alone and therefore less vulnerable because let’s face it it can be rough out there at times and we are all in this together.

Thank you all

We lose the wonder because we are challenged by our lives. We get cut open, gutted like fish and left to resurrect ourselves along this journey of life or we sit in nothingness. What inspires me to believe in humanity and what keeps me in love with people is that I choose the later. All things are rooted in suffering. You look at my photos and videos you see smiles or love or something else but do you know where that light and love came from? It came from the physical abuse, it came from the mental abuse, it came from losing a baby, it came from the rape, it came from the judgement of others, it came from getting lost, it came from my struggles that still exist even to today. Suffering yields the miraculous. So be here. Be part of what you’re sewn into. Bloom and blossom where you are planted. Be aware of the awesomeness that you are and realise that without you, the seaming of this mysteriously interconnected world would cease to exist as it is. Hope is never gone, it is just ignored or lost in the chaos of life.
As I am about to embark on a 3 year journey to head home to Australia on Saturday. I want to thank you all. It would not have been possible without you all. if you want to know if you make a difference and social media is real life, well here is the proof. Without you all my book would not have happened you inspired the publishers to read my voice, my flight I would be still saving for to go to Australia after three years of not being home, my yoga teacher training with @blissology would never had happened thanks to his incredible awsesomenss.
So remember not to ignore the hope it is all around everywhere you look. Dont let it get lost in the negativity or chaos. A special thanks to @yogicbynature @amyweckermd and @supermomtraci for reminding me of my worth when I forget it.

We are alive through a state of rapture in ourselves

When a woman is in a state of rapture she is standing in her power. Not for anyone but to feel her full range of her emotions and to stop teetering in the nasty neighborhood of diminishment and self doubt. She feels like she can fly which, is not usual in this denoting system of this society/culture. The only thing that offers a women or any human full pleasure in their life experience is self love/acceptance with rapture in their body. Our bodies are built for pleasure with 8000 nerve endings to taste, touch, feel, see and hear. Our bodies are capable of feeling ecstasy and not just attached to sex; as society would have us think. Eight thousand nerve endings teach us all freedom, self reliance, and help us to find our higher purpose. They show us joy and sadness and everything in between. When we ignore our ability to feel and our pleasure or only think of it as sex, we become blocked, we hurt others and we enslave ourselves in daily life, like work, kids, driving, cook, fitness, relationships, chores, bills etc without feeling any joy. Many of us are spending our life in a perpetual state of frustration, depression, anger, shame, judgment, blame, ego non healing state and resentment. We need to learn to reconnect with ourselves through the tools of life like senses and arts of life so we can allow ourselves to reconnect with our joy and pleasure on a daily basis in everything we do.